Friday Night

I've splent a pleasant day at home today. I love working at home! I was able to work a couple of hours this morning, sitting at my desk. Honey would come up to me occassionally and ask to be petted, I obliged of course. It was cool this morning, so I really enjoyed my cup of hot chocolate... I left to have lunch with some work friends and then came back to work some more. While I was earning my pay today, I was also spending it. I had a security system put in this afternoon. I must admit to FEELING more secure now.

Which is a little ironic to me, since I know full well that my life and well being is in the hands of God. None the less, I still like knowing that if I press a button, my house is armed. Isn't that a funny statement? My house is armed? Watch out! My house is armed! Humph.

I have the tv on now and I'm in my pajamas snugged up underneath a fuzzy blanket, because it's chilly. I wish I had some company, but I'm not unhappy being alone. A little bored, I guess. I am looking forward to tomorrow night because Curt and John are coming over to hang out with me and look at pictures. I miss hanging out with people I enjoy. I feel like I haven't been able to do that in a long time.

Wednesday night was a good bible study night for the women's Circle. I talked about having peace with God. I asked them what did that mean? To have peace with God? To go from knowing you are sinful, deserving of hell. To feel shame, fear, pain, gut wrenching guilt, never being able to fix it... To be aware of the reality of that in yourself and then know that you can approach God freely. That God loves you. And you love Him. Forgiveness. Joy. Acceptance. Reconciliation... Peace with God. I can't grasp it. I glimpse it, but I can't grasp it and I certainly can't hold on to it.

But tonight is quiet and I am safe. And loved... and the One who loves me best is here with me.