Over a year later...

So... where did the time go?

Get a new job, start traveling week to week, home only on the weekends and suddenly time, personal time becomes much more precious. Subsequently what I chose to spend it on became more important. Time for relationships, being deliberate in maintaining my relationships--that became important. Time spent at home, sleeping in my bed, eating in my kitchen, sitting in my recliner, loving on my dog -- that became life-giving.

Yet, until recently, time for my relationship with God was not something I sought out - or, I must admit, not much. Even now I don't feel guilty about it, just a little sad about the loss of opportunity. Recently I discovered (again) Tim Keller and have been listening to his sermons online. I must still be a christian (laugh) because listening to him talk about the Prodigal Sons and the love of the Father for them was pure joy. Real Food. Listening to him talk 0f how christianity brings about life-transformation (freedom from sin, freedom from addictions) was pure hope to me. I am looking forward to the next one.

Things I am thankful for - my friends who continue to seek me out, my counselor, my house, my sister, my job, my life. My singleness. Yes, even that, because I'd might not have any of the rest of it if I were not single. Today I went to lunch with Barbara Linn -- she surprised me with a lunch party including Bewey and another friend. How much fun it was to be on the recieving end of someone caring for me. Tonight for the first time in months, Bewey called me to make sure I was okay and there wasn't a hint of reproach about not going to church in a month. That was a gift.