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Everyone has it. Sometimes I feel like I've gotten a handle on my emotional baggage. Lord knows, I've spent enough time and money analyzing the way I respond to life, whether it's healthy or not, determining how to better respond to life, etc. And sometimes I forget that, given the right set of circumstances, my emotional junk will rise up and tie me in knots. The funny thing is that by now, I recognize when it's happening and can control my responses. My actions. I am less successful controlling my emotional responses. It frustrates me.
Amazingly, I have been made aware that despite the things I don't like about myself, when I look at people who have the qualities I sometimes wish I had--by comparison I often turn out more stable, more functional, more productive, more healthy... And I wouldn't trade that for anything.
But it takes me a little bit to remember that, sometimes. Took me till after lunch today.
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It's funny - almost the reverse for me is true. If I'm around uncompromisingly stable people, I feel much more unstable and basket case-like. I do agree with trying to emulate their stability, but usually talking myself into being a servant and not being so selfish is what gets me by in the end.
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