Temptation

Yesterday I walked into the lab and ran straight into Henrietta. We exchanged good mornings and then right before I got on the elevator, she says to me... "Lisa--I got sumptin for you." She rummaged around in her lab coat pocket and came up with a handful of chocolate kisses. I stared at the enemy of my diet and then back up to her eyes. "Oh, thank you, Henrietta, but I started my diet today." She looked at me for a moment and then hmmphed at me. "How long is that gonna last?"

I had to laugh.

Then I went to the break room to put all my little meals in the fridge. Three, count them, three cakes were in there waiting for anyone to take them.

I didn't eat any of them.

Last night I slept better than I have in I can't remember when. I went to sleep at 9:30 and didn't wake up until 6:30. I couldn't believe it! So today I was encouraged to keep it up. Even though it is such a PAIN to prepare all this stuff. Man.

At work I've been given a cubicle in another building across campus to work on this project. My temporary cubicle is right next to my direct supervisor and today he came around and told me that it was nice to have me over there. That made me feel good. Later on I was laughing to myself about something I had done and I heard him say through the cubicle wall... "What are you laughing at?" That was kinda fun--like roomates...

I also had a meeting with him and M today to discuss some issues that had been hindering the project. I like it that he is willing to express support for me, but even more, I like it that he is willing to help me. I mean, I've been able to express a need and the next thing I know he's taken care of it. This shouldn't be a problem, but I think I'm scared to trust him too much. I like being able to depend on him, but I don't want to depend on him. He's even started teasing me when I call him by asking me "What have you done now?" Or "Are you causing trouble again?" I would never have thought I'd have the trust issues from my dad showing up in a working relationship. Sigh.

Sunday School was really good this past Sunday. I've been thinking about it all week so far. He really made me aware of the cost of my salvation. And for me to hear that there is a tension between God being the judge and the justifier was a new concept. Last week I had been put off by his manner of delivery, but I gave him a second chance. Glad I did.